megnetix

he asked, "why do you always have to be making something?" 

and i realized i've never really thought about that question so directly.  

"because it's the reason that i exist"

and i don't know what to make of this.  well, maybe i do.  

in a way creation is the driving force of existence 
i enjoy amplifying this force into my everyday life 

and i'm just so curious about what would happen 
if i draw something without looking,

or write a long sequence of unrelated words into 
a mass of word constellations: ready to excavate for raw idea material.

it's more than mental construction of a "purpose-driven life" --
it's instinct.  i swear it is.  i'm being alive and interested.  

if i stopped...i would get bored out of my mind.  this is why i never get bored.  and it's impossible to just halt a creative process that's constantly purring.  why would anyone want to stop that??