incredible toys you got there matey

lazy beetle finds a toy

he asked, "why do you always have to be making something?" 

and i realized i've never really thought about that question so directly.  

"because it's the reason that i exist"

and i don't know what to make of this.  well, maybe i do.  

in a way creation is the driving force of existence 
i enjoy amplifying this force into my everyday life 

and i'm just so curious about what would happen 
if i draw something without looking,

or write a long sequence of unrelated words into 
a mass of word constellations: ready to excavate for raw idea material.

it's more than mental construction of a "purpose-driven life" --
it's instinct.  i swear it is.  i'm being alive and interested.  

if i stopped...i would get bored out of my mind.  this is why i never get bored.  and it's impossible to just halt a creative process that's constantly purring.  why would anyone want to stop that??

[pu-erh tea = yummm]

biscuits:

1 c white flour

1 c whole wheat flour

4 tsp baking powder

1 tsp salt

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mix dry then add:

1 c milk

stir in but not too much, keep the dough fluffy.  

drop on pan and back 10 min at 450degrees

[ennnnnnnnnnnnnjoy]

another baby book full

snow finally

suspicious of stories??

Found this TEDx by Tyler Cowen interesting, yet disheveled and limited in focus.  But it is worth listening to, got the mental juices flowin, especially toward the end when he finished rambling about kinds of stories and why he is suspicious of them:

Tyler Cowen, you are putting a lot of unnecessary semantic constraints on the word story; as if the definitions of story are limited to linear narratives.  This is not true, stories are more than words or history.  stories have the power to engage and fuse all the senses at once, and convey knowledge, information, ideas, and inspiration.  If you read Leslie Marmon Silko (Ceremony is a good place to start) or several other Native American authors you will learn a lot about this concept.

sunrise phone photos

<3 solar flare

fly

new d.i.y. tab on website

hmmm

i find that if i am not meditating mystically in my life, i begin to feel listless and a bit depressed.  and how do i fix this?  first, i go for a run.  then, i do some freakin research.  watching stargate at 5 this morning also helped, i can't believe i've never seen it before.

as a sidenote, check out these major chemtrails from the other day:

and that's just a little square of the vast iowan sky, full of jet trails that were not going away anytime soon.  

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